[5/25/26 - 5:53] why do i even try
[5/25/26 - 10:24] thanks user malorey knotts on urbandictionary.com, you helped me better grasp what a player is. i mean, she totally is one: preying on people for attention they never intend to return, backs away when something can't be sustained, making someone feel important just to find out they have twenty other side hoes. but i've been told i'm always too harsh, and that i'm wrong, and that half the people on the internet aren't uncommitted parasocial degenerates. but my little secret i'll never tell them is that the same people who tell me i'm wrong are uncommitted parasocial degenerates. they'll keep building their little cult, piece by piece, and i'll keep feeding into it. it's only natural—that's the way love works today.
[5/24/26 - 8:10] "You get around, oh-oh-woah, you get around, oh-oh-woah. You get around, oh. You're busy fuckin' everyone, busy fuckin' everyone... Oooh, busy fuckin' everyone.
[5/23/26 - 4:56] people on the internet are good at making you feel certain ways, no matter who you are.
[5/22/26 - 11:20] today someone made me feel less human. i wish i could say that im the type who doesn’t let people get to them, but as i mature i start to realize that isn’t the case. i wish someone would look at me and instead of seeing a man, they saw a person instead. just a person.
[5/22/26 - 11:17] each time she suffers, i wish a part of me would die. but it doesn’t. im too selfish, and with every hopeless day, i feel a sense of connection. guilt is still there, but connection overcomes it.